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...Stories That Never End...What is happening?

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I didnt blieve my luck! can I really capture this is a flash of time on a highway, as we drive by!? Personally, its just a deam picture for me, regardless of if its liked or not. there is so much history of my thoughts, memories and life in this one image that I cant even begin to write about it!! "Street Photography"
1950's in 2010		This is the first time I saw him! I was on the 6th floor. I thought he would be of a bigger build. I had heard about his attitude before. He walked very slowly....it must be -17C. The car stopped & he got in.....I had to rush....
a		I could not believe he was not alone....He promised....like before....I tried to see the faces but they were too clever....he left the engine running....It was snowing very hard & the road ahead was closed....how did he think he would get back afterwards.....I didnt want to hear the noises but it was impossible...it didnt take too long...
b		What was he going in there...he was there for a long time...where was he going...I could hear the snow crunching under his feet...but what was he doing there...it was only lit with a small street lamp...he looked angry but sure...did he already know...what was he saying to himself as he walked...
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She took me to show me where it all happened...right by the sigsn she said...you can still see some marks...I didnt want to look but could not help it...it was like a nightmare in the middle of a blizard...I could nottake my eyes off it...there,she said...I know you can see it...I told you what it was like didnt I?...I could not speak...I just looked at her...what was I doing there...what was I doing there...What was I doing there...
d		They didnt all leave together...they split up...they said something very quietly...I wanted to walk away but couldnt...I didnt know whom I shoudl follow...I didnt WANT to follow anyone but I knew I had no chioce...he made it very very clear...I had no chioce...I had no chioce...the cases looked empty...what was he doing...I had no chioce...
e		One of them turned around & saw me...why did he do it? why did he look? he was was ahead & couldnt have heard...he whispered something to the others...they speeded up...I tried to look the other way but I had to see what happened next...they wanted me to see it I now know...they wanted me to see what happened...they wanted ME to see it...I couldnt do anything about it...why me?....why me?...then... he stoped & begun to walk towards me....
f		She asked me...no, she TOLD me to wait....wait & I will be there...dont leave, I must see you...I must tell you...I need to tell you & you need to know she said & then she hung up...It was 5 minutes past midnight... it was minus 18C & getting colder. I waited until 3.15am...I didnt even put my new hat one so she could recognize me easily...we had spoken about 30 times but this was the first time she had agreed & told me we must meet...the hot dog man was wondering why i was still there when he left...where was she...what happened to her...why didnt she call...why wouldnt she answer my calls...what was she doing there with him...why with him...
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when I went back he was not there...how could he leave like that...why did he leave...this was the third time...the 9th man...I dont even know if he was a man or was he a she?...I knew the name was J, thats all...I waited....waited....waited...went & bought a coffee & went back...no sign of him...why did he do that...why did she send me to him...why did I believe her again after last night...but then...I saw a note by the cups...it was addressed to me...he knew I would be there so he wrote it down for me...I realized when i read it that he knew they would come for him...but how would he know...& why him?? why me??....I had to fold the paper & put it in my pocket...I looked around to see if they could see me...was anyone watching me too...it was too much to read...why tell me...why all the minute details...I had to get away & read the rest later...I now wish I had not seen the note at all...why did he tell me....why me...please why me...
h		I had to follow him...he knew I would follow him...he planned it...he is smart...he went inside & locked the door...I shouldnt be here...this is a public place so its safe...I tip toed in quietly...I stood still for 5 minutes...may be a little more...total silence...he was making some noise...bodily noises & telling a story...I couldnt hear well...then he spoke to me....Well, are you going to just stand there he said?!...I looked back startled & it was only me there...he said...Yes, I
i		So he sent you...I didnt think he would...I didnt think you
j		I wondered around all day...I had to kill some time...it was part sunny in the afternoon but freezing...I had nowhere else to go...nowhere else to be until midnight...I wanted to see her before I went...I had to see what he looked like before I went...I knew she wanted to see me too...did she really...I wasnt looking forward to the next day because I knew what had to happen...why did it HAVE to happen...why...maybe she could tell me...maybe she would know how to stop it...little did i know...little did I know...Little did I know...
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It had to come to an end...But it didnt...its been going on for a long time & has to end...& when it does...I WILL walk away...& walk away. Far away...but not here...would they find me again...they knew I saw it...they knew I had the papers,I was there, I saw the pictures, I spoke with her...I spoke with him...the number...the marks...the signs...they even thought I did some of it...I didnt...I couldnt...they knew she was calling me...did she tell them??...how did they know? but they knew...it wasnt safe...they said it was,but I knew it wasnt...I took what they wanted...but did they know that too??...I didnt tell anyone...but at the end...why did they do all of that...why so many people...why me...did they know who I was? we sopke on the phone but they never saw my face...the husky voice...I dont think they did!...I cant leave...I need to find out...I need to find out...I must find out...I will find out...& if i have to this time I will bring it to an end...I
L		...So I called her...she told me where to find him...he was the only one who made some sense...he didnt even look me in the eye...he knew what information i wanted...but he said: what you want is not what you need! I will tell you what you need to know to do what you have to do...BUT, i will say it once...he lit up...it was almost dusk...his face lit up...a BIC lighter...he shook it several times to get a flare...he lit up every 10 minutes or so...then he told me...as usual since the whole thing started, the more I heard the more I didnt want to hear...but...I listened...he lit up again & just moved on...but before he did,he looked around and slowly put a piece of paper in my hand...
M		He moved on...I opened the crumbled paper...Meet Xorsos at 6am by the City Theatre...They know you haven’t given up...They are following you to get to all the others...the links in the chain...We cant do it, but You can!...we have to be careful…very careful. It was -18C at 6am when I got to The City Theatre...I saw a man sitting on the steps...Are you Xorsos?...Who the fuck are you he replied!...Excuse me I said?...You Fucking deaf?...I
N		I listened to Xorsos & then we parted...I was mentally breathless! I know Xorsos didnt have much time left. But as I wondered around to cool my sizzling head I couldnt get the Old Man out of my head. I could smell what they did to him. Poor man. He was the man who knew it all. Every number,every code,every name,every face, every crack. He used to always say: I wonder howz it going to end? He would always meet me at midnight at his favourite piano bar. Always with a Petit Corona Cigar. Always carried a much loved old leather case that his father gave him when he was 16. We would walk to his apartment.It was more like a 1950
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I stopped at the apartment to pick up a few things. The Old Man knew what was coming! He had mailed me his yellow book! If you get this, then I
P		Later on that day, I heard on the news that a body of a middle aged woman had been fished out of one of the Canals! They had identified her. She had been involved in Major internationl crime for decades but never caught!!! I wondered if they also found her glasses! I arrived at the next address at around midnight! I sat in the dark and waited. occasionally I
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Later that night I went to the bar that I knew she was supposed to be. I didn
q3		I got there a few minutes before she did. 2.12 am. It was really Hot and Humid in the subway. I cant remeber how many steps down but it was a lot. Surprisingly about a dozen people where also waiting on both sids of the station. I started to sweat. The atosphere reminded me of Blade Runner. Hot, Steamy, Humid, Damp, even morbid. I heard running footsteps, Thats not like her but there she came!!! Out of breath. She was shaking... what
q4		Hey man, You want some weed? Bush? Ganja? No Thanks. How about some Yellow dust, needles, silver paper? No Thank You. Opium? Crack? Speed? Blue Bill? name it... I have it all, Top stuff... Blows your mind... You want some?? No Thanks. Give you a good price! I said No thanks. Ok..Ok...Don
q5		Jesus and Street Photography. Hey Bro, Ya comin to Church? I Might! Ya Might? I
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Where the hell are you? Home? Been waiting outside Joe
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q8		Hello…. I told you didn’t I? Duke? Where the Fuck have you been man? Been SO worried!! This is the only call I’ve made since we were last together…..Last Call!!! Yeah… a Fucking month ago Duke…. A WHOLE month…. The only call? Last call? Duke I’m even more worried now…. I told you…No one Gives a Fuck…. What you’re on about? You didn’t ,did you? DID YOU? A whole month J, One night after everything had stopped, I came up!!! Brought some supplies…. You know….stuff….water….. just as an experiment… No one Helps!!? You Fuck!! You DID IT!!! You wrote Help Me!! A whole Month J!! No one gives a Fuck!!! Duke, have you lost your mind? Quite the opposite!!! Not a single person thought….who the hell wrote Help Me!! Is anyone there?? Shall we take a look?? May be someone actually needs help!!! They all rush around getting their bargain basement deals, We’re all eating each other.… Duke…… I sit day and night. Have you been listening to the news on the radio??? Who is helping who to help me!!?? Just don’t want any part of it now….. Duke, Where are you now….where ARE you man? At my Exit J, My Exit…….. What? .........Duke, What happened to the glass half full? What happened to you? To what we planed? To our dreams? To YOUR dreams? Duke……. Duke…………. Duke…………………
q9		She arrived right on time and got into his car. What was he doing there!? Why did she come!? All the talk about how she didn’t know him went through my mind. If was not important at all until she got into the car. What are they doing there! He just got back from Malaysia, buying some sort of liquid. A Blue-ish color liquid. What WAS this liquid! May be she is having a CAR affair, you know. The reclining seat experience. But as time went on their voices got louder and louder. What WAS going on in that car. I could not understand the words but I knew they had started to argue. It sounded like an argument. I rolled my car window down to hear better. It WAS an argument. I heard her shouting my name. What was he saying? I could see at times the car would swing side to side very very slightly as if there was some physical involvement. I looked around and there was no one in sight. It was about 3am by now. 20 minutes in the car. It all went very calm again. No sound. So quiet. I heard a cat’s Mi-ao some distance away. A bird. I looked up and the sky was so clear. A moon lit night. Stars so large I felt I could just reach out and take one. I could hear Stravinsky in my head. You could probably hear a pin drop. Then….. A Gun shot!! Deafening. My heard stared to race! I saw a flash of lightning come though from the car! Someone shot someone! A second later, she got out of the car and walked away and diapered around the corner. I didn’t know what to do. Follow her to check the car! Someone must have called the police by now. it was so loud. I knew where she lived so I decided to check the car. I got out and whilst looking around, approached the car. I could hear sirens. I put my gloves on and reached for the drivers door handle and pulled. It was locked. I couldn’t see into the car. I went around the car as I knew the other door would be unlocked. She had just got out. I opened the door and carefully looked inside……….
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